5 Things to drivers...

1.Its like you own the fucking road...Whatever
2.Do you really need to talk on the phone and drive?...If its that important PULLOVER
3.Why must you pass me only to turn like 3 feet ahead..couldn't you have waited a couple more seconds.
4.If the speed limit is 60...please stay around that instead of the 30 that you insist on going.
5.TRY like hell to please stay in your own lane...You big ass trucks...STOP thinking that if you jump into my lane that I will automatically be able to pull onto the shoulder saving us both death...Sometimes I can't

WTF of the Day....

Me and Tolan were outside while he was riding the little coupe car thing. He always waves at every car the drives by. Well this SUV comes past and he does his Beep Beep and waving and this lady stops...rolls down the window and says hey little man your so cute in your car(I know she was just being nice) then goes on to say You wanna come home with me? Of course I was right there so I know she wasn't a kidnapper but in this day and age you CAN'T be saying that to kids...Seriously! Tolan looked at her and then me and shook his head no and started backing up to me. Thank god I have taught my child that strangers are a no no. And in my heart I know she wasn't be serious but fuck people need to start thinking before they speak to kids. She could have just blown her horn and waved like most of the people do. It just gave me a sickening feeling in my heart knowing that I won't always be with him every second of everyday to protect him from strangers.

The Ailments of Age...

Ok first off you would think some days I was 80...Which is so odd because my Granny Bug is 80 and shes like a breath of fresh air everyday. Obviously I didn't inherit her good genes! I really feel like I am plagued with some unknown illness...this illness waits until a day when nothing is going wrong with my body and then plans its attack. The disc in my back are shrinking so my lower back has a lot of friction and shocking. Having Endo doesn't help it at all. But on the rare day that its not getting at me too bad I may start a toothache...If both my back and my teeth are feeling good...My endo is acting up. On those RARE days when none of those are acting up....I am 100% sure that sometime during that pain free day I will unpurposely cause trauma to myself. WHY as I get older..it seems like 27 is the new 87?

OK sooooo...

I am all about giving and my inlaws are not broke by any means so I don't feel bad when I say this BUT I LOVE when we do Christmas with them and I end up getting all my money back for the presents plus more. I think it serves them right! How rude am I?

Tomorrow....

Is Christmas with the inlaws...Lets all take a moment of silence to pray for me! I may need it :)

I swear...

Sometimes I hate going to the store. I went yesterday so that I wouldn't have to get anything today...Well guess what at 830pm in the pouring rain I had to drag Tolan out to pick something up. I ended up spending way to much money on nothing really. I make a vow right here and now...I DON'T CARE IF WE RUN OUT OF ANYTHING...I WILL NOT GO TO THE STORE BEFORE SATURDAY!

Tolan's 1st Christmas Cookies...

Damn this blog...

Why can't there just be a delete button when you've made a post that you didn't mean to? OR am I just blind and can't see it? LOL

Its crazy...

That the cost of Stamps has gone up so much! After mailing out my Christmas Cards today...The cost of the stamps were more than the cards and the pictures that were printed for inside of them put together. I think we should protest this. I mean we need a break somewhere! Who would you write a letter to to address this problem?

Christmas Cookies!

Tonight me and Tolan did our first Christmas cookies! I shall post some pics. But I asked him if he was having a good time making them with me and he said " Yes Mom thank you" I said thank you too Tolan. His response..." Tonight was so perfect" Good God could a person really need more than that?!?!?!?

Are You...

Are you one of those people that wait until last minute to do anything? Oh you are...interesting because I am too. I have only about 5% done with Christmas Shopping. I am usually on Christmas Eve trying to get last minute gifts and every year after Christmas I say...Not this year I will be done by October when in reality I haven't even started by October. I wonder if there is a support group for this because I really think I am needing one.

Gah....

Its been 2 long. But I am back to my blog!

No Need To Tell You...

Just some random personal thoughts...

Oh man spending all this time with Chelsia and Tolan together makes me want another child soo much. Seeing how happy they play together and how many laughs I hear from Tolan is tugging at my heart. I don't think Micahel is ready for more kids at all but I am. Its just me talking out loud...

13 Things About Dieting Lifestyle Changes that I have learned!

1. Trying to get from heavy to thin is a challenge in itself. Its not gonna come easy but it will pay off.
2. You really can get full from healthy foods.
3. Its ok to fall off the wagon as long as you get right back on it.
4. You can't blame your non losing on anyone but yourself. If you want to do it you can.
5. Anyone can lose weight...its all about how much you want it.
6. STOP MAKING EXCUSES and just do it!
7. Instead of saying I'll start on Monday.NO start now cause when Monday comes your gonna wanna change the day again.
8. There will be more tears over trying to lose weight then probably any other situation in your life.
9. Don't do it for anyone but yourself.
10.Its ok to ask for help.
11. Make sure everyone around you is supportive. There is nothing worse then trying so hard for something and someone not giving you a shoulder to lean on.
12. You don't need diet pills. They are just a way to make your body think its doing something.
13. Make it fun! Being skinny shouldn't be something you dread trying to get to. Think off all the cute clothes your gonna be wearing!

Perfection Without Words!

I can't believe it!

After 27 months on the bottle...my big boy now doesn't even ask for it. There are times that it tears me up to think that I took his security away and a couple times I almost gave it back. I am really glad though that I stayed strong and kept with it. He eats soooo much food. I didn't realize how much drinking he was doing. His belly pokes out sooo much from all his eating. I know that I did the right choice cause I would rather him get his health from food then liquids. So yay to me and Tolan for losing the bottle!

Monday Music...

What it is about music that makes you feel better? I can be so stressed and as soon as I start listening to music it chills me out. When I am cleaning and turn it on...it puts some fun into cleaning. Me and Tolan just spent half and hour dancing around the living room. So I say take 30 mins out your day to dance with your kids. It will make you feel better.

:O Don't Speak

I am soooo glad to be home!

Its weird...As much as I love my parents and cry when I leave....There is always a comfort of being home with my hubby and feeling needed.

Attn Stalkers...You know who you are....

I See You :)

My mom....

My mom got out the hospital this morning. Thank god! I keep searching and looking for a cure for her. Every site always returns me back to steriods and chemo. I am hoping that there can be an end to this. I feel so bad for her.

I am BACK!

I am here to blog again.....I shall try to stay focused this time!

Why Oh Why...

Do I even let Tolan leave the house. It eerks me to make plans then have to change them. I would have just been happier with no plan at all. I guess this teaches me a lesson to keep Toadee at home with me.

Where do you draw the line....

Between being nice and hurting someones feelings? I know I know no one truly wants to hurt feelings. But sometimes don't ya just want to let all hell break loose. Keeping quiet IS the right thing to do but how do you decide what battles to pick....Think about it!

Haiku Friday!

13 Things about Drs that make me angry!

1. They expect you to be there on time but they are never on time.
2. You have a 9am appointment yet they don't call you until after 11.
3. You wait in the room longer to see them than you were in the waiting room.
4. They always tell you what you want to hear.
5. If they say they will call you...they won't.
6. You get put on hold for an hour just trying to make an appointment.
7. You fill out the 45 pages of about me but then they ask you the same questions again.
8. Peeing in a cup is a real challenge.
9. They aren't afraid to give you too much stuff to try.
10. They never tell you what you need to hear.
11. They get way to into the koolaid.
12.AND THE #1...they always seem excited to be giving a pap.

I won't tell....