Granny...Papa Tomorrow!

This afternoon my mom talked to Tolan. She told him that tomorrow when he woke up that he could come to her house. Well Tonight I was putting him to bed and as always I said Love you Tolan night night. The first thing he said was Granny Papa Tomorrow! Blew my freaking mind. He has picked up sooo much stuff. Its amazing that this little man that I grew in my belly is now having conversations with me. This has been without a doubt the best 20 months of my life.

I can't wait to see Tolan!

Well its been officially 72 hours since I have seen my Tolan. How I miss those early morning wake up calls. I rearranged and cleaned his room last night so that he would know that while he was still gone I was thinking of him. Little man brings me the most joy out of all the things in my life. This afternoon can't come soon enough for me!

Shhhh.......No Words

Ode To Icecream

Why is that stuff so fucking good? Me and Tolan were on the icecream isle for 45 mins trying to decide what the best plan of action was. Do we want something sugarfree that taste like dirt or do we want something yummy thats gonna add a couple pounds to the waist. It was a tough tough decision. And then the flavors.....Whatever happened to just Vanilla/Strawberry/Chocolate? What has this world come too when we have so many options of one product. In the end...we went for White Chocolate Strawberry....Only to be brought home and made into homemade shakes. Where we ended up in Tolans room with pillows all over watching Spongebob and drinking them. Can't be all that bad...RIGHT?!? Those are those precious moments that we can't get back.

13 Things I wanna do before I retire from this world!

1. Get skinny
2. Ride an airplane
3. Visit France
4. Smoke in Amsterdam
5. Get a degree
6. Have something published
7. Find out the truth of my dads death
8. Take a mud bath
9. Get a massage for real
10. Start a business
11. Find a way to eat anything yummy and not gain weight
12. Find a cure for my mom
13. Watch Tolan graduate highschool

Right now I am so fucking far behind I may never die!

Wordfree Wednesday!

The Real Me....

So who am I?

Me in a nutshell....

I am....

I am very shy.
I am NOT afraid to cry.
I do not trust everyone....You have to earn my trust.
I wear my heart on my sleeves.
I do not believe in revenge...lifes to short to waste time on a fucker who could care less.
When I love....I love. When I hate....I hate.
I am a worrier.
I like to laugh at stupid jokes and cry during movies that are not real.
I do believe that everything happens for a reason.

Thats me in a nutshell...take me or leave me.